Confrontation: Freedom
After a very long time, I never thought I’d hear from her again. But I did. Infact, I saw her again…met her as I was enjoying the rare moments I can be by myself to reflect and think.
Not only she seemed different–she was different. She had confidence way better than her strong resolution before. She greeted me with a smile, and her smile was warm and full of energy. And tho’ she still spoke of many uncertainties in her life, her enthusiasm was unwavered. It was as if she welcomes them with thrilled curiosity.
She is different. I could tell she is free from her “shadows of the past”. She is free to look back and never be shaken by what she would see. She is free to be visited with memories and never falter. She is as resolute as ever, firm and much stronger.
Then, I wondered…was there someone new? She seemed inspired that I couldn’t help but to ask her that. And she laughed at my sheepish expression of curiosity. And I wondered if there was a slight giggle in her laughter, and if that would mean a ‘yes’. Then I was beginning to feel compelled to ask, “is there the old one?” But I held my tongue instead. Perhaps the ‘ex’ became the ‘x’ and had been long forgotten. And yet to all these wonderings she answered ‘no’.
There isn’t a new one, and there isn’t the old one either. The ‘ex’ was often referred to as ‘he’ spoken with ease and nonchalant, yet non-dismissive, reference. And yet as she talks about the subject, I didn’t find any coldness or indifference. I found a heart that welcomes love. And I saw infront of me someone who embraces life, taking it as it is. She now has been living the freedom she yearned to have–freedom from confusion and unpleasant feelings brought by confrontations of a once painful past. And meeting her that day, I realized that we were both confronted with freedom.
I said good-bye to her, but she shook her head. “Never a goodbye,” she said. I knew then that it’s true. All the experiences and wisdom that she shared to me will continually live within my memory, and through that she’ll always be with me. I knew that I will see her again. We’ll get together again, laugh at our blunders, and reflect on life’s lessons. And hopefully from then on we’ll share pleasant and inspiring stories of life’s confrontations and freedom.
(This trilogy is dedicated to all who can relate ^_^)
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